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Thursday, February 26, 2009

Two Very Special Birthdays!


I want to wish 'Happy Birthday' to these two peoples...who are very dear to my heart...

First and foremost is my little sister, Petrina, who's turning 10 today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, m'love! I love her more than words can say. xD...

And the second one is to Victor Hugo, one of the greatest authors of all time. While I didn't write a poem for you, Hugo, you know you're dear to my heart. And so are your books. And even though your dead, I'm sure you went to The World Beyond.

... And, I did write a poem for my little sister. Happy, happy, happy Birthday! And here it is:

She lived in a world of well-made fantasy;
There would her artistic talent show.
In her mind, far away from chilly reality;
There her love of beauty would grow.
She was a faery flitting in the treetops,
A faun dancing around the fire
A nymph singing upon the sea-rocks,
A centaur galloping o'er the briar.
A caterpillar emerging as a butterfly,
A kitten scrabbling in the hay,
A puppy tearing clothes set out to dry;
Young colts frolicking in their play.
A girl splashing her feet in the stream,
Rippling her smiling reflection;
All of these she became in her dreams,
Drawing the objects of her affection.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Beside the Hearth One Night


I sat beside the hearth one night

And warmed my hands upon the crackling flame

Thinking of things that brought my mind delight

What I was, what I became.


The inferno inside my head

Somehow matches that of the sparking wood

And even as the embers wane into a dying red

Smoke is ascending sainthood.

Friday, February 20, 2009

My Introduction

I was thinking the other day, and it came to my attention that every book has an 'introduction' of some sort. Why shouldn't mine? It doesn't feel right to just go straight into the poems. Like I've said before, I want this to feel like a real book. I want to put a lot of time and effort into making it just right. I even decided on what I want the cover to be. Probably a dark brown. I would say black, but even I get bored of black from time to time...*whistles*.

So I'm even going to make a Table of Contents. Down to every last detail that I can think up. But now I'm getting off my subject. The 'Introduction'...ahem...is going to be...a poem. What better way to start my book? The only problem is that the poem I wrote as an Introduction seems so feeble. I prefer some of the other ones in the book. And something seems wrong about having an Introduction poem that doesn't match up to the poems inside of the book itself...am I just being over-picky or do I have a point? I mean, the poem's fine, it was my best that I could do at the time...but I'm just not sure. Maybe I'll experiment some more. Write different poems. It's just that it's more difficult to write one that fits. Why? Because it either has to be something about me (*le cough*...you cannot imagine how difficult it is to write a poem about yourself) or about Poetry in general. It's extremely challenging to write something about Poetry that's original, something that hasn't been said before. The one I've written so far is about my 'Spirit of Poetry'. The 'thing' inside me that inspires me to write...and it seems so feeble, so unoriginal. I mean, it just feels like it's something that's been written before. And that's not a good feeling, Cookies, believe me. It's like when your an artist drawing something, and it turns out (even unintentionally) looking exactly like another picture. It's not a nice feeling...like a big wet blanket being thown over your manuscript that you've worked hard on. But enough moaning. All things work together for good, and I'll just have to work on it and see what happens. xD

Much love,
-Jo.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Love in Twilight


There is darkness behind the light — and the pale light drips

Cold on vague shapes and figures, that, half-seen loom

Like the carven prows of proud, far-triumphing ships —

And the firelight wavers and changes about the room,


As the three logs crackle and burn with a small still sound;

Half-blotting with dark the deeper dark of her hair,

Where she lies, head pillowed on arm, and one hand curved round

To shield the white face and neck from the faint thin glare.


Gently she breathes — and the long limbs lie at ease,

And the rise and fall of the young, slim, virginal breast

Is as certain-sweet as the march of slow wind through trees,

Or the great soft passage of clouds in a sky at rest.


I kneel, and our arms enlace, and we kiss long, long.

I am drowned in her as in sleep. There is no more pain.

Only the rustle of flames like a broken song

That rings half-heard through the dusty halls of the brain.


One shaking and fragile moment of ecstasy,

While the grey gloom flutters and beats like an owl above.

And I would not move or speak for the sea or the sky

Or the flame-bright wings of the miraculous Dove!


-Vincent Benet

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Love is Blind

... And my love for you is blind. (You know who you are!)

I'm just going to post the link, Cookies, because the embedding isn't working today. =/ I love you more than you'll ever know.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BNs09z1fBF0&feature=related

I love you!

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Friday, February 13, 2009

Dreams and Memories


Dreams are made of porcelain

Time and space is wearing thin

Lay dusty in my mind's cabinet

With memories long torn and rent

Are the skeletons of experience

The poems lacking a cadence

Countless senseless actions

My old, belated passions

Locked in cobwebbed caskets

Rotten fruit in broken baskets

To which only I possess the key

Empty dreams and rusty memories.

I wrote this poem while chatting with a bunch of people online. It wasn't one of my 'run off to the forest and recieve inspiration from the scents of sylvan surroundings'. Haha. It's supposed to be shaped somehow like a keyhole, but I have a feeling I didn't quite reach my mark with that one. Nevertheless, it captures my meaning...broken dreams and empty memories. And I keep on dreaming, and I keep on storing memories.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

My Book-to-Be

I don't know how many of you I have told about this...probably not a grand lot of you have heard...but I'm going to be publishing a book of poetry. I've been thinking about it for awhile and I think I'll probably take the plunge in about 4 months or so. I can also put my book up for sale online, and I'll get a certain amount of money from the profit...=/ I don't know who would buy my poetry but maybe someone will have a fetish for a 13 year old's scribbled thoughts. Who knows? I might get lucky.

My goal is to have 100 poems altogether in that book. It's going to be hard-cover! :-O I'm going to feel so special publishing something like that, I just know I'm going to be even more in love with the world. Right now I've reached just a bit over 50 that are worth putting into print. xD! I actually feel excited when I think about publishing my book...so...that means that I'm really, really looking forward to this. I mean I hardly ever feel excited...

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

My Chandelier

Hopes soar higher than ever before
Happiness seems so much nearer
The chandelier crashes to the floor
Crystals and dreams lay shattered
Alone amongst the empty wreckage
Dancing with no-one to nothing
Sidestepping pieces of shiny debris
Still loving, wishing, and breathing.

Monday, February 9, 2009

The Lamentations of an Icarus


The lovers of prostitutes are
Happy, cheerful, well-fed;
As for me, my arms are broken
Through having hugged the clouds.

It is thanks to the incomparable stars,
Blazing in the depths of the sky,
That my devoured eyes see only
The memories of suns.

In vain I wished to find
The centre and the end of space;
I know not under what fiery eye
I feel my wings breaking;

And burnt up by love of beauty,
I shall not have the splendid honour
Of giving my name to the abyss
Which will serve as my grave.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

The Nightingale and the Rose - by Oscar Wilde



"She said that she would dance with me if I brought her red roses," cried the young Student; "but in all my garden there is no red rose."

From her nest in the holm-oak tree the Nightingale heard him, and she looked out through the leaves, and wondered.

"No red rose in all my garden!" he cried, and his beautiful eyes filled with tears. "Ah, on what little things does happiness depend! I have read all that the wise men have written, and all the secrets of philosophy are mine, yet for want of a red rose is my life made wretched."

"Here at last is a true lover," said the Nightingale. "Night after night have I sung of him, though I knew him not: night after night have I told his story to the stars, and now I see him. His hair is dark as the hyacinth-blossom, and his lips are red as the rose of his desire; but passion has made his face like pale ivory, and sorrow has set her seal upon his brow."

"The Prince gives a ball to-morrow night," murmured the young Student, "and my love will be of the company. If I bring her a red rose she will dance with me till dawn. If I bring her a red rose, I shall hold her in my arms, and she will lean her head upon my shoulder, and her hand will be clasped in mine. But there is no red rose in my garden, so I shall sit lonely, and she will pass me by. She will have no heed of me, and my heart will break."

"Here indeed is the true lover," said the Nightingale. "What I sing of, he suffers - what is joy to me, to him is pain. Surely Love is a wonderful thing. It is more precious than emeralds, and dearer than fine opals. Pearls and pomegranates cannot buy it, nor is it set forth in the marketplace. It may not be purchased of the merchants, nor can it be weighed out in the balance for gold."

"The musicians will sit in their gallery," said the young Student, "and play upon their stringed instruments, and my love will dance to the sound of the harp and the violin. She will dance so lightly that her feet will not touch the floor, and the courtiers in their gay dresses will throng round her. But with me she will not dance, for I have no red rose to give her"; and he flung himself down on the grass, and buried his face in his hands, and wept.

"Why is he weeping?" asked a little Green Lizard, as he ran past him with his tail in the air.

"Why, indeed?" said a Butterfly, who was fluttering about after a sunbeam.

"Why, indeed?" whispered a Daisy to his neighbour, in a soft, low voice.

"He is weeping for a red rose," said the Nightingale.

"For a red rose?" they cried; "how very ridiculous!" and the little Lizard, who was something of a cynic, laughed outright.

But the Nightingale understood the secret of the Student's sorrow, and she sat silent in the oak-tree, and thought about the mystery of Love.

Suddenly she spread her brown wings for flight, and soared into the air. She passed through the grove like a shadow, and like a shadow she sailed across the garden.

In the centre of the grass-plot was standing a beautiful Rose-tree, and when she saw it she flew over to it, and lit upon a spray.

"Give me a red rose," she cried, "and I will sing you my sweetest song."
But the Tree shook its head.

"My roses are white," it answered; "as white as the foam of the sea, and whiter than the snow upon the mountain. But go to my brother who grows round the old sun-dial, and perhaps he will give you what you want."

So the Nightingale flew over to the Rose-tree that was growing round the old sun-dial.

"Give me a red rose," she cried, "and I will sing you my sweetest song."
But the Tree shook its head.

"My roses are yellow," it answered; "as yellow as the hair of the mermaiden who sits upon an amber throne, and yellower than the daffodil that blooms in the meadow before the mower comes with his scythe. But go to my brother who grows beneath the Student's window, and perhaps he will give you what you want."

So the Nightingale flew over to the Rose-tree that was growing beneath the Student's window.

"Give me a red rose," she cried, "and I will sing you my sweetest song."
But the Tree shook its head.

"My roses are red," it answered, "as red as the feet of the dove, and redder than the great fans of coral that wave and wave in the ocean-cavern. But the winter has chilled my veins, and the frost has nipped my buds, and the storm has broken my branches, and I shall have no roses at all this year."

"One red rose is all I want," cried the Nightingale, "only one red rose! Is there no way by which I can get it?"

"There is a way," answered the Tree; "but it is so terrible that I dare not tell it to you."

"Tell it to me," said the Nightingale, "I am not afraid."

"If you want a red rose," said the Tree, "you must build it out of music by moonlight, and stain it with your own heart's-blood. You must sing to me with your breast against a thorn. All night long you must sing to me, and the thorn must pierce your heart, and your life-blood must flow into my veins, and become mine."

"Death is a great price to pay for a red rose," cried the Nightingale, "and Life is very dear to all. It is pleasant to sit in the green wood, and to watch the Sun in his chariot of gold, and the Moon in her chariot of pearl. Sweet is the scent of the hawthorn, and sweet are the bluebells that hide in the valley, and the heather that blows on the hill. Yet Love is better than Life, and what is the heart of a bird compared to the heart of a man?"

So she spread her brown wings for flight, and soared into the air. She swept over the garden like a shadow, and like a shadow she sailed through the grove.

The young Student was still lying on the grass, where she had left him, and the tears were not yet dry in his beautiful eyes.

"Be happy," cried the Nightingale, "be happy; you shall have your red rose. I will build it out of music by moonlight, and stain it with my own heart's-blood. All that I ask of you in return is that you will be a true lover, for Love is wiser than Philosophy, though she is wise, and mightier than Power, though he is mighty. Flame- coloured are his wings, and coloured like flame is his body. His lips are sweet as honey, and his breath is like frankincense."

The Student looked up from the grass, and listened, but he could not understand what the Nightingale was saying to him, for he only knew the things that are written down in books.
But the Oak-tree understood, and felt sad, for he was very fond of the little Nightingale who had built her nest in his branches.

"Sing me one last song," he whispered; "I shall feel very lonely when you are gone."
So the Nightingale sang to the Oak-tree, and her voice was like water bubbling from a silver jar.
When she had finished her song the Student got up, and pulled a note-book and a lead-pencil out of his pocket.

"She has form," he said to himself, as he walked away through the grove - "that cannot be denied to her; but has she got feeling? I am afraid not. In fact, she is like most artists; she is all style, without any sincerity. She would not sacrifice herself for others. She thinks merely of music, and everybody knows that the arts are selfish. Still, it must be admitted that she has some beautiful notes in her voice. What a pity it is that they do not mean anything, or do any practical good." And he went into his room, and lay down on his little pallet-bed, and began to think of his love; and, after a time, he fell asleep.

And when the Moon shone in the heavens the Nightingale flew to the Rose-tree, and set her breast against the thorn. All night long she sang with her breast against the thorn, and the cold crystal Moon leaned down and listened. All night long she sang, and the thorn went deeper and deeper into her breast, and her life-blood ebbed away from her.

She sang first of the birth of love in the heart of a boy and a girl. And on the top-most spray of the Rose-tree there blossomed a marvellous rose, petal following petal, as song followed song. Pale was it, at first, as the mist that hangs over the river - pale as the feet of the morning, and silver as the wings of the dawn. As the shadow of a rose in a mirror of silver, as the shadow of a rose in a water-pool, so was the rose that blossomed on the topmost spray of the Tree.
But the Tree cried to the Nightingale to press closer against the thorn. "Press closer, little Nightingale," cried the Tree, "or the Day will come before the rose is finished."

So the Nightingale pressed closer against the thorn, and louder and louder grew her song, for she sang of the birth of passion in the soul of a man and a maid.

And a delicate flush of pink came into the leaves of the rose, like the flush in the face of the bridegroom when he kisses the lips of the bride. But the thorn had not yet reached her heart, so the rose's heart remained white, for only a Nightingale's heart's-blood can crimson the heart of a rose.

And the Tree cried to the Nightingale to press closer against the thorn. "Press closer, little Nightingale," cried the Tree, "or the Day will come before the rose is finished."
So the Nightingale pressed closer against the thorn, and the thorn touched her heart, and a fierce pang of pain shot through her. Bitter, bitter was the pain, and wilder and wilder grew her song, for she sang of the Love that is perfected by Death, of the Love that dies not in the tomb.
And the marvellous rose became crimson, like the rose of the eastern sky. Crimson was the girdle of petals, and crimson as a ruby was the heart.

But the Nightingale's voice grew fainter, and her little wings began to beat, and a film came over her eyes. Fainter and fainter grew her song, and she felt something choking her in her throat.
Then she gave one last burst of music. The white Moon heard it, and she forgot the dawn, and lingered on in the sky. The red rose heard it, and it trembled all over with ecstasy, and opened its petals to the cold morning air. Echo bore it to her purple cavern in the hills, and woke the sleeping shepherds from their dreams. It floated through the reeds of the river, and they carried its message to the sea.

"Look, look!" cried the Tree, "the rose is finished now"; but the Nightingale made no answer, for she was lying dead in the long grass, with the thorn in her heart.
And at noon the Student opened his window and looked out.

"Why, what a wonderful piece of luck!" he cried; "here is a red rose! I have never seen any rose like it in all my life. It is so beautiful that I am sure it has a long Latin name"; and he leaned down and plucked it.

Then he put on his hat, and ran up to the Professor's house with the rose in his hand.
The daughter of the Professor was sitting in the doorway winding blue silk on a reel, and her little dog was lying at her feet.

"You said that you would dance with me if I brought you a red rose," cried the Student. "Here is the reddest rose in all the world. You will wear it to-night next your heart, and as we dance together it will tell you how I love you."
But the girl frowned.

"I am afraid it will not go with my dress," she answered; "and, besides, the Chamberlain's nephew has sent me some real jewels, and everybody knows that jewels cost far more than flowers."

"Well, upon my word, you are very ungrateful," said the Student angrily; and he threw the rose into the street, where it fell into the gutter, and a cart-wheel went over it.

"Ungrateful!" said the girl. "I tell you what, you are very rude; and, after all, who are you? Only a Student. Why, I don't believe you have even got silver buckles to your shoes as the Chamberlain's nephew has"; and she got up from her chair and went into the house.

"What I a silly thing Love is," said the Student as he walked away. "It is not half as useful as Logic, for it does not prove anything, and it is always telling one of things that are not going to happen, and making one believe things that are not true. In fact, it is quite unpractical, and, as in this age to be practical is everything, I shall go back to Philosophy and study Metaphysics."

So he returned to his room and pulled out a great dusty book, and began to read.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Thinking of You




Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

The Genesis of the Butterflies


The dawn is smiling on the dew that covers
The tearful roses; lo, the little lovers
That kiss the buds, and all the flutterings
In jasmine bloom, and privet, of white wings,
That go and come, and fly, and peep and hide,
With muffled music, murmured far and wide!
Ah, Spring time, when we think of all the lays
That dreamy lovers send to dreamy mays,
Of the fond hearts within a billet bound,
Of all the soft silk paper that pens wound,
The messages of love that mortals write
Filled with intoxication of delight,
Written in April, and before the May time
Shredded and flown, play things for the wind's play-time,
We dream that all white butterflies above,
Who seek through clouds or waters souls to love,
And leave their lady mistress in despair,
To flit to flowers, as kinder and more fair,
Are but torn love-letters, that through the skies
Flutter, and float, and change to Butterflies.

Victor Hugo

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Perverted Beauty


Ribs protruding from yellowed skin
Veiny eyes bulging from bony sockets
Your wrists belong to leukemia patients
Breasts shrunken down to the size of peanuts
Calves and thighs stick out like eyesores
Shriveled feet finding pain in touching ground
Your stomach long thinned down to nothing
Joints and limbs too skeletal to be sound.

Starving yourself in search of beauty
Your emaciated corpse proves you wrong
A new and perverted sense of attraction
Leading into unwitting suicide before long

Hello again, Everyone...the prodigal has returned, and started off with another truly depressing poem. I'm sorry, but it's what was inspired at the moment--by those who starve themselves in search of "good looks". I don't know if this is hypocritical of me...being nearly that skinny myself...but at least it's not purposeful. xD!

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